Last week I mentioned I was in a fighting mood to go to battle with my scale, and this week I’m out for blood. It had the nerve to tell me that I gained a pound!
Seriously, I have been killing myself doing these Insanity workouts. I was so sick this past Friday that I couldn’t work, that but I still managed to get in my six Insanity workouts for the week. I feel like I’m going to be the only person on Earth that will gain weight doing Insanity.
I did my second Fit Test on Sunday. I’m suppose to do it every 2 weeks and see how I improve as part of the program. You do a series of eight exercises and do as many as you can. I improved from my initial test, except in one exercise (Switch Kicks), but I think I might have counted wrong on that move the first time around, so I am not going to dwell on it.
I’m so aggravated and frustrated, but I refuse to give up. I’m so close to doing some crazy diet plan, but I really don’t want to go there. I know an eating plan such as the Six Week Body Makeover, which I have done in the past, will result in weight loss, but it’s not sustainable. At least it isn’t for me. Still, I keep looking at my numbers from week to week and thinking I need to do something different to boost my metabolism. This clearly isn’t working. Since I’m working out consistently, and working pretty darn hard too, then the problem must be with my diet.
I don’t eat unhealthy, as I’ve said in the past, but maybe it’s the foods I’m eating. I don’t overeat, so it has to be the actual foods, right? Maybe I’m not eating enough – I just don’t know.
The scale just stopped showing me any results, and it’s been the same way for awhile. I see a one pound loss this week, a gain the next week, 2 pounds down, 2 pounds up..the fact is I’m not losing weight. I’ve been hovering around this same weight since May. My consistent losses just stopped after I lost twenty pounds. On the bright side, I have successfully been able to maintain my weight, but I still need to lose another 20 pounds (at least!). I’m not trying to be some super skinny minny either. When I got married, I was 40 pounds less than I am right now. I’m not shooting for my ultra slim twenty-something self, I just want to be a normal and sustainable weight.
Perhaps next week I will try the Six Week Body Makeover. It’s a difficult plan, you have to eat 5-6 times a day, and the foods are very limiting. Absolutely nothing processed is allowed, not even salad dressing or olive oil. Basically no salt at all, aside from salt that is in food naturally. You need to be really prepared in advance for eating on this plan, and prep your meals way ahead of time. And I find it’s hard to find creative meals you actually want to eat that are flavorful. When I did this plan once before, and I look back at myself as a crazy person. I carried steak and chicken in my purse during the day so I wouldn’t skip a snack, and I’d be up on Sunday morning making these mock pancakes, but trust me, they weren’t pancakes – just plain oatmeal, egg whites, and frozen blueberries. Yuck.
I don’t want to do it, but I’m starting to see no alternative. Simply counting calories and exercise isn’t working anymore. Let’s see – if I started it on Sunday, then six weeks would end on November 14th. I’m not sure I’d go whole hog with the program, I want to actually have a life. As I look at the calendar right now, I see we have something going on every weekend for the next six weeks – we are throwing a party the first weekend, the following weekend is a dinner with friends, the weekend after that we were going to be away in Cape Cod, and then Halloween the weekend after that. All these temptations before the holidays even hit – it’s always something.
I’m just rambling. I’m lost and confused, and not really sure what path to take next. Maybe I’ll switch up my eating plan, maybe I won’t. For now, I’m just going to try to get through this week. Eating clean and continuing with my Insanity program. Who knows, maybe something will change. Right now, I’m just running on fumes from aggravation.