I have to admit I’ve fallen off the Insanity workout program. I got consumed by a project that took over a lot of my personal time, and it caused me to skip a few workouts in my 4th week of the program (now 2 weeks ago). Pretty much the only thing that was keeping me going forward with Insanity was the fact that I hadn’t skipped any workouts. My motivation came from my time investment in those insane workouts, and not wanting all that to go to waste. Well, life unfortunately got in the way and I didn’t really have a choice.
At least I didn’t have a choice that week, this past week I was just plain lazy. I am struggling to get back into the program. I hate skipping workouts, it always sets me on a bad path like this, and deflates me. I get reminded how weak I am and how easy it is to fall back into my old ways. Plus, it’s a lot more fun to be lazy. It’s so damn tempting. Maybe one of these days I’ll turn into a person that loves working out, but for now, it’s still a struggle every time to get it done.
In an effort to pick up the pieces and keep moving forward, I did one of the Insanity workouts on Sunday. It was brutal. I started out great, and was feeling quite cocky as I breezed through the first half thinking how the break I took didn’t do any damage. I was kidding myself. By the end, I was sprawled out on the floor in a sweaty mess, pushing the pause button, and wanting to cry. After that, I really don’t want to go back to it. I skipped yesterday’s routine and I’m just getting further and further away from being able to pick it back up from where I left off.
I really want to do this program and finish it before the end of the year. It’s like my white whale. This nonsense stops today. Sure, I skipped it yesterday, but that has nothing to do with today. I decided to restart it from the first week. As much as I hate the idea of prolonging the program, I think that’s the only way I can get through it. I’ll only feel a sense of accomplishment if I know I did the program as it was intended, and that does not include a two week break in the middle of it. It’s only Tuesday, I can still make the most of this week.
This is a bad time of year for my waistline, and I can’t allow myself to fall into a hole of laziness. There are so many temptations coming up – Halloween, Thanksgiving, holiday vacations, and then the actual holidays. I gained so much weight during this time last year. I need to exercise, and have a stable routine if I’m going to make it through this time without any damage to all my hard work. I know all too well that I can gain weight at the drop of a pin. Just maintaining my weight takes a lot of work, not to mention trying to actually lose it.
It’s time to get to work. Fight the lazy. No more excuses!