Vacation Mindset

Time really flies, I can’t believe it’s been two weeks since vacation, and I’m already done with the first phase of BodyShred. Phase 2 is much harder! There is some form of unpleasant burpees in each segment of one of the workouts – woof. I’m doing much better at the program on this second round than I did the first time, but it’s still kicking my butt.

My problem is my vacation mindset; it’s lingering. I’m still eating and drinking as if I have no cares in the world. I am currently 3 pounds heavier than I was before I left for vacation, and it seems to be sticking. Since starting BodyShred, my weight loss has been basically non-existent. I was so worried about becoming lazy again and not getting back into my regular workout program, that I didn’t see this coming. On a positive note, BodyShred seems to be cancelling out my current eating and drinking habits, but I still have 10 pounds I want to lose, and I can’t stop now. The weight loss finish line is so close!

I guess I have two choices here – I either cut back on my eating and drinking, or work out more. Honestly I am not a fan of either option, but no one said losing weight was a big party. It’s hard work and involves sacrificing indulgences. Anyone that says different is selling something.

That being said, I think I am going to do both. I am going to cut back on all this drinking. I shouldn’t be drinking at all if I want to lose weight, and it’s time to stop with the wine, beer, and fun summer cocktails. Vacation is over. Don’t get me wrong, I will still have some limited wine and beer on the weekends, which I have done throughout my program. Typically I have 1 beer and 2 glasses of wine on the weekend, and that’s it. After all, I’m not made of stone. I think it’s important to integrate things you enjoy into your diet and find a balance. But, these cocktails need to go away completely, they are simply diet destroyers. I’ve found a new love called moscow mules, and we need to break up.

My eating actually isn’t too bad, I have been enjoying a dessert here and there, but otherwise, I keep it pretty clean. My big temptation this time of year, which was my same problem last year, is the darn fruit. Not the worst thing to be eating, but I have been eating way too much of it. I always have fresh cut strawberries, grapes, nectarines, or something in the refrigerator, and it’s SO GOOD right now. I can’t help myself when I go to the refrigerator to grab a handful of something. I already eat fruit as part of my morning breakfast smoothie, so I need to watch the rest of the day. Everything in moderation.

As for adding exercise, I keep saying I am going to run a few times a week, and I haven’t been doing that since the Spring. Instead my current pattern is cracking open some wine or a beer, or having a moscow mule after work and relaxing. Instead, I need to get off my butt and get outside and enjoy this awesome weather. I love it when I’m doing it but right now it’s hard to get motivated to get outside and do additional exercise for some reason. I think it’s just that “sitting around with a tasty beverage” mindset that I really enjoyed on vacation that I can’t seem to shake. It was way too much fun.

Also, this is going to sound ungrateful and completely whiny, but it doesn’t help that people keep saying that I look skinny. Not that I don’t love it, but I’d be more motivated to finish this weight loss if someone called me a fat cow. Of course, that would really upset me, so  I am just never happy. These last 10 pounds are going to be the hardest to lose, so I need an extra push. I need to really WANT it, and I realize I am feeling a little complacent. I go back to that fortune cookie I got last December, which I have mentioned before, and read, “it could be better, but it’s good enough.” I don’t want to have that attitude –  it’s not good enough, and I want it to be better. Screw that cookie.

I want to finish what I started. I’m not going to allow myself to fall apart at this point. I’ve come way too far. Time to get to work and make things better.

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