Trying Harder

I haven’t posted in awhile, mostly because I have nothing interesting to report. Things have been basically the same. I’m stuck around the same weight as I was in July-August, and I am in the same pattern. I am still working out 6 days a week; I have not skipped any workouts. While I’m really proud of that, I have not lost any weight. I still have about 8-10 pounds (depending on the week) to lose, and I’m stuck.

Since I last posted, I started and completed a second round of Jillian Michael’s Bodyshred without any weight loss. I started to do the Power 90 Master Series after that, but I quit after the first week. It wasn’t challenging enough for me, and Tony Horton was WAY too annoying on the DVDs. I love Tony, but on this particular set of DVDs he was just way too overboard with the silly jokes, and I couldn’t take it for 12 weeks. I also wanted to up my game, so even though I SWORE I would never do it again, I started a second round of Insanity.

At this point, I am on my 4th week of Insanity, and I really like it! I feel as if I’m getting in a good workout for the time investment. Although I am still not losing any weight, I can’t blame the program – I know it’s my eating. This week with Halloween has been particularly bad, and I will be lucky if I even out this week. The Insanity workouts have been critical for me right now because at least they can stand up to my bad eating patterns at this time of year. Last year in October, I stopped working out altogether and gained 10+ pounds over the holidays. I really don’t want that to happen again, so I know I need to really watch myself right now. I see myself making poor eating choices right now and I can’t let it escalate.

I starting writing this blog almost two years ago as a form of accountability, and I need to get back into it and see this to my goal. I am so close, and I want it so bad. I’m drawing a line in the sand with my eating and drinking. I always thought it was not exercising that was my issue, and I now believe that I have that under control. I never let myself skip workouts anymore – exercise in my life is no longer an optional part of my day. While that was a MASSIVE feat for me, it’s only half the battle.

The thing is, I get depressed about the scale. I don’t seem to lose weight whether I eat perfectly, or splurge on wine, dessert or what-not every now and then. I was searching the internet a few weeks ago reading about “losing those last ten pounds” and everything I found was something I was already doing. I already restrict my calories, eat pretty well, drink lots of water, blah blah was getting so annoying not seeing any results I kinda threw my hands up and stopped.

Well, I know I can’t have that attitude and I need to keep going. On the bright side, I think I have the formula for maintenance when I get to that phase. For now, I have to try harder.

I won’t go on and on about all these things I plan to commit to do. I will just say that my goal for tomorrow is to try a lot harder than today.